Ten K-Pop Songs I Disliked But Now Love

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I apologise for all the K-Pop posts recently but I’ve been having writers block and it helps to write about stuff I’m interested in: hence all the K-Pop posts. So occasionally groups I love will release songs that I just don’t feel on the first listen. But the more I give them a listen the more they grow on me! So here are ten K-Pop songs I disliked at first listen but now love.

10. Girls’ Generation – I Got A Boy

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I had only just gotten into K-Pop when I first listened to this song. I was a big fan of Crayon Pop and I wanted to start listening to more K-Pop groups and I’d heard of Girls’ Generation so I checked out a lyric video for ‘I Got A Boy’ and I couldn’t stand it. For someone who grew up listening to purely Western music it was difficult to get into and it put me off listening to any other Girls’ Generation songs. But I kept coming back and giving it a listen and eventually I started to really like it. That song is still my favourite era of theirs to this day and I’m now a massive fan of Girls’ Generation. They actually slay my entire existence.

9. BTS – Save Me

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I absolutely loved BTS’ ‘Fire’ when I first heard it and had it on repeat for ages but I was really disappointed when the music video for ‘Save Me’ was dropped. It wasn’t really my kind of thing so I didn’t listen to it much. I ended up seeing them at ‘K-Con Paris’ though so I started to listen to their songs more to prepare myself and soon I started to love ‘Save Me’. Although it’s not high on my list of favourite songs I do really like it a lot more now than I did when I first listened to it!

8. IOI – Pick Me

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IOI were another group at ‘K-Con Paris’ and the only song I’d heard by them was ‘Crush’… Which they did not perform. They did open with ‘Pick Me’ which is their iconic song that I’d never heard before. Although I’d enjoyed it live, when I got home and decided to give it a listen I thought it was one of the most annoying songs ever. But I really liked IOI’s ‘Dream Girls’ so I kept going back and listening to it again and again until eventually the song grew on me and now I love it! It may be repetitive but that beat drop is iconic, let’s be real.

7. Bastarz (Block B) – Make It Rain

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When this song was released my friends recommended it to me and I gave it a listen but really didn’t like it. I replied to them to say it was ‘too intense’ and that I wasn’t a fan. I didn’t particularly like ‘Zero for Conduct’ either but I heard it a lot in my friend’s car until eventually it grew on me. And because I loved that song I decided to give ‘Make it Rain’ another try and ended up really liking it the second time! I was actually really disappointed when they only did ‘Zero for Conduct’ and not ‘Make it Rain’ as well at their concert in London earlier this year.

6. AOA – Mini Skirt

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It took me a really long time to become an ‘AOA’ fan because I kept listening to ‘Heart Attack’ and assuming all their songs sounded like that. I still can’t stand that song but I soon became a fan of songs like ‘Good Luck’ and ‘Like a Cat’. But when I first heard ‘Mini Skirt’ I didn’t particularly like it, I thought it was kind of annoying. What sold me was the choreography, I really love the dance practice video for this song and now it’s my favourite by AOA. It’s also probably the song that made me start to stan them; I love it so much now compared to my first listen!

5. Black Pink – Stay

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I really liked Black Pink’s debut with ‘Boombayah’ and after a few listens I started to like ‘Whistle’ as well. However I wasn’t that impressed with their comeback after that. Everyone was fangirling over ‘Playing with Fire’ but I really didn’t like it and I liked ‘Stay’ even less. I’m not particularly a fan of slow songs, with some exceptions obviously, but I thought ‘Stay’ was really boring. I’m not even sure why I went back to give it another listen but it started to really grow on me and although it’s not my favourite Black Pink song I definitely prefer it to ‘Playing With Fire’ and ‘As If It’s Your Last’.

4. GOT7 – Just Right

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Although it’s now my favourite GOT7 song I didn’t like it that much at first listen. This song is definitely not the first thing you should show to your friends who don’t know much about K-Pop because if you don’t get the song then the music video is really weird. I really liked GOT7 personally but I couldn’t get into any of their songs – I’d given this one a listen a few times and just couldn’t like it. Until my friend suggested we try and learn the choreography and through learning the choreography I started to really like the song which lead me to liking more of GOT7’s songs. I think GOT7 are still one of those groups where I prefer them as opposed to their songs but I love ‘Just Right’ now!

3. Red Velvet – Russian Roulette

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As I wrote in my last post, I fell in love with Red Velvet’s ‘Dumb Dumb’ on first listen so when ‘Russian Roulette’ was released I was really disappointed. I had felt that until then Red Velvet had been getting better with each comeback and I thought the song was a real let down. I also wasn’t really a fan of the music video. However, I ended up watching them dance to this at two times speed on ‘Weekly Idol’ and that’s what made me eventually start liking the song and it’s now my favourite! I also really love the music video now too; I’m not sure why I didn’t like it originally. I have more faith in Red Velvet now and always give their comebacks several goes if I don’t like it at first listen and they have yet to release a song that I truly dislike.

2. EXID – Hot Pink

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When EXID dropped ‘Hot Pink’ I’d only ever listened to ‘Up & Down’ which I wasn’t a massive fan of immediately but the song did grow on me. I gave ‘Hot Pink’ a listen because the song title sounded interesting… But I really didn’t like it. As with most of their songs it sounded all over the place and I just couldn’t get into it. I started to like it through listening to their other songs like ‘Ah Yeah’ and decided to give ‘Hot Pink’ another chance. I feel like that with a few EXID songs though, I hated ‘Lie’ when it was first released because it was all over the place too but now it’s my favourite song by them. EXID are one of those groups where I need to give their songs a few listens to get used to it before it suddenly becomes my shit.

1. Mamamoo – You’re The Best

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Similar to EXID, Mamamoo are definitely a group where I need to give their songs a few listens before I like them. Everyone and their dog was going on about Mamamoo and how talented they were so naturally, I decided to give them a listen. I listened to ‘You’re the Best’ and couldn’t stand it; I really didn’t see what all the fuss was about. I kind of gave up trying to like Mamamoo until someone I followed on Tumblr posted a funny moments montage of them and I thought they were hilarious. I learnt all their names and decided to give their songs another try. Eventually this song grew on me and I started to love them! I tried listening to more of their songs and had the same initial response of disliking them but in the end they always grew on me. Mamamoo are insanely talented so if you haven’t given them a listen I definitely recommend it, they’ve got to be one of my favourite groups and I’d love to see them live one day.


Ten K-Pop Songs I Loved At First Listen

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I’ve seen a lot of compilations on YouTube of ‘K-Pop songs I loved at first listen’ and I don’t have the patience to make a YouTube video anymore because I only have MovieMaker which keeps freezing every twenty seconds so I thought it’d be a lot quicker to just write a list. So here are the top ten K-Pop songs I loved at first listen!

10. 2Eyes – Pippi

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I’m not as big of a fan of this song anymore because I’ve listened to it one too many times but when I first heard it I had it on repeat for the rest of the night. I watched the dance practice video over and over again and for a few hours, this song was literally my shit. I listened to some other 2Eyes songs and I wasn’t as impressed with them as I was with ‘Pippi’. I don’t listen to it much anymore but I still think it’s a great song.

9. SISTAR – Lonely

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I could’ve also put ‘I Like That’ for Sistar because I had that on repeat when it first came out but ‘Lonely’ has a special place in my heart as it was the last song they released as a group before they disbanded. I was a casual fan and the moment I started listening to more of their music and decided to stan them they went and disbanded! When they released ‘Lonely’ I fell in love not only with the song but with the music video which is probably one of my favourites. I was getting ready to go out with friends when I first heard it and I listened to it on repeat until they arrived. It’s definitely still my favourite Sistar song.

8. AOA – Excuse Me

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I did not like AOA when I first heard them. That’s because the song I chose to listen to was ‘Heart Attack’ which is a song I still cannot stand, no matter how much I now love AOA. However I liked their ‘Good Luck’ comeback so I listened to more songs like ‘Like a Cat’ and ‘Miniskirt’ and soon I started to like them. But I absolutely loved ‘Excuse Me’, everyone else seemed to prefer ‘Bing Bing’ or not like their comeback at all but I had ‘Excuse Me’ on repeat for ages the day it came out. It’s another one that I’ve listened to so many times that I’ve gone off it but I still think it’s one of their best comebacks yet.

7. CocoSori – Dark Circle

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‘Dark Circle’ is CocoSori’s debut song and I loved it from the moment I first listened to it. I also loved their second song ‘Exquisite’ and for a while that was my favourite song but I think I prefer ‘Dark Circle’ that little bit more. The music video’s a little weird but I love it, it’s another one of my favourites and the song is brilliant too. CocoSori need more viewers so give them a watch!

6. Red Velvet – Dumb Dumb

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For the last three Red Velvet comebacks I haven’t liked them after the first listen. I have to listen to them a few times until they grow on me and I start to love them. But ‘Dumb Dumb’ was definitely a one listen and I was sold. Although I prefer ‘Russian Roulette’ as a song, I hated it the first time I listened to it. However ‘Dumb Dumb’ has always been a jam ever since the first listen. It’s really catchy, I recommend giving it a listen!

5. Oh My Girl – Liar Liar

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‘Liar Liar’ was the first song I ever heard by Oh My Girl and it only took one listen for me to love them. Their other songs took a few listens until I became a fan but ‘Liar Liar’ had me hooked when I first heard it. It’s another catchy song that easily gets stuck in your head. I’m also a big fan of the music video – as I’ve previously said, Oh My Girl’s music videos are aesthetic goals. Although my favourite music video is ‘Closer’, ‘Liar Liar’ will probably always be my favourite song.

4. BTS – Mic Drop

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I also could’ve picked ‘Fire’ for BTS because that was a jam right from the start (I need to stop describing every song as a ‘jam’ it’s not ironic or funny I’m just lame) but I went for ‘Mic Drop’ because I didn’t particularly like ‘DNA’ when I saw the music video and I was a bit worried I was starting to go off BTS. Then I listened to ‘Mic Drop’ which confirmed that yes, I am still complete and utter trash. I’m convinced the whole album is worth buying just because of this one song, I love it that much. I first heard it only a few nights ago and I didn’t want to listen to any other song for the next couple of hours. BTS are honestly still my shit.

3. G-Friend – Fingertip

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G-Friend have always slayed my existence but it took me a few listens to get into ‘Rough’ and ‘Navillera’. I liked ‘Me Gustas Tu’ at my first listen but I didn’t particularly love it. Then they released ‘Fingertip’ and I was blown away, it’s so different to their other comebacks and I loved it. It’s one of those songs that I’ve listened to again and again and again and I’m still not bored of it. I think this song will always be my favourite of G-Friend’s just because I wasn’t expecting them to release something like this and it’s a jam (I’m sorry)!

2. Strawberry Milk – OK

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I’d heard Crayon Pop were having a sub-unit for a while but to be honest I wasn’t particularly sure what a sub-unit was or what the point was until I watched Strawberry Milk’s ‘OK’ music video. I remember listening to it the day I left for ‘Asylum 13’ and I listened to it the whole way there on the train and between each panel I’d head back up to my hotel room to listen to this song. I honestly loved it so much and it’s still catchy as fuck, and one of my favourite choreographies to do. Listen, I love this song so much that I was going to cosplay as a Strawberry Milk member for London Comic Con. The only thing that stopped me was lack of money.

1. Dreamcatcher – Chase Me

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A lot of people were talking about Dreamcatcher’s debut and I wasn’t sure what to expect but I absolutely loved it. When I was a teenager I listened to nothing but rock music so to change to K-Pop was quite weird but this song took me back and I fell in love with it. It’s like a mixture of my old taste in music combined with my new taste in music and I love it. It’s also another music video that is aesthetic goals as fuck. Also this choreography always blows me away whenever I watch it. I had this song on repeat for hours after I first listened to it and there weren’t any other Dreamcatcher songs to listen to at the time so this was the only thing I had! I’m so glad they’ve released more music still then and I’ve still got my fingers crossed that they’ll come to the UK.

Top 10 Underrated K-Pop Group Recommendations

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I’ve been procrastinating so many blog posts that I wanted to write so I decided to write about something I really like in the hopes that I’ll start to feel more inspired to update. I haven’t written a review in what feels like forever but for now I’m going to be recommending 10 K-Pop groups you should listen to! These aren’t necessarily my favourite groups as I’ll be leaving out some of the more famous groups.


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I first discovered ASTRO when my friend slept over at mine and we were too tired to actually do anything so we scrolled through Netflix to see if there was anything interesting on. In the end we found the K-Drama ‘To Be Continued’ and that’s how we first discovered ASTRO. I’ve been low-key trash ever since.

They have an innocent concept and their songs are usually quite chill but I’m not normally a fan of but ASTRO have some brilliant songs. Also all the members just seem so sweet and lovely and it’s so easy to fall in love with all of them. Plus their visuals are no joke. I just recommend them so hard.

Favourite song: Hide & Seek
Bias: Moonbin

9. Dreamcatcher


Dreamcatcher were originally a girl group called Minx but they redebuted with two new members earlier this year as Dreamcatcher. They debuted with the song ‘Chase Me’ and when I first heard it I had it on repeat for like three hours. They have a dark concept and it just really works. Their music videos are so interesting and their dancing is no joke either.

There’s talk of them coming to Europe at some point to tour and I am praying they come to England because I’d love to see them live. They’re so talented and their songs are brilliant, 100% recommend.

Favourite song: Fly High
Bias: Yoohyeon

8. CocoSori

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Not many people mention CocoSori, which isn’t surprising as their debut video only has about 500,000 views and their second song has even less. And I get why, they are a little weird. Their debut song ‘Dark Circle’ does feature a large man dressed as a piece of broccoli. But the song’s still good! Right now they only have two songs but they’ve recently started a fundraiser so they can have another comeback and I really hope they raise enough!

I just love that CocoSori don’t take themselves too seriously and their songs and music videos are just really fun! Yes, they’re a little strange but they’re also different and I love them. I definitely recommend giving them a try.

Favourite song: Dark Circle
Bias: Sori

7. Block B

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I wasn’t particularly a big fan of Block B until last year when I saw them at K-Con Paris. I didn’t know their songs that well but I kind of knew them from my friends playing them while I was around. They honestly had one of the best sets at K-Con, they were so lit and even though I barely knew them I was having the best time ever watching them. So when they announced they were coming to London me and my friend Becca made sure we had tickets – even though they were super expensive it was absolutely worth it.

They’re another group whose songs are just upbeat and fun to listen to. I think I love them even more after seeing them live twice; they have such great energy and know how to get everyone pumped. You have to give them a listen at least once.

Favourite song: Very Good
Bias: Kyung

6. Oh My Girl

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I was a casual fan of Oh My Girl but now I suddenly love them so much. Their music videos are such aesthetic goals and they’re all so talented. They’re one group that I would love to see live but the chances of that happening are slim. They’re also all so pretty – if I could look like anyone I would absolutely pick YooA she’s honestly beautiful.

Oh My Girl change concepts for every comeback and I love each one. My favourite song keeps changing all the time because they’re all so different and I love all of them.

Favourite song: Liar Liar
Bias: Hyojung

5. Sonamoo

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To be honest I don’t really know much about Sonamoo but I checked out their song Déjà vu a while ago and loved it. I was a bit disappointed to hear they’d changed sounds and I wasn’t a big fan of their other songs but I soon started to love them, especially ‘Like U Too Much’. They’re another group whose dancing skills aren’t to be messed with.

They recently had a comeback with their song ‘Friday Night’ which I recommend!

Favourite song: Déjà vu
Bias: Nahyun

4. Matilda


Matilda are another group that I don’t know a great deal about but I came across one of their songs and really enjoyed it! They’re another group that are extremely talented but are constantly slept on. I don’t know that many songs by them but I will definitely be checking out more of them, they’re so good!

Favourite song: Summer Again
Bias: Haena


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I love EXID so much. The first song I heard about them was ‘Up & Down’ which let’s face it, is an iconic jam. I started listening to more of their songs and was lucky enough to see them at the ‘London Korean Festival’ earlier this year and they were absolutely brilliant. They have some brilliant songs and I could jam out to all of them.

This is another one of those groups where my favourite member and song keeps changing because they’re all so lovely and all their songs are brilliant. You’ll see what I mean if you gave them a listen!

Favourite song: Lie
Bias: LE

2. G-Friend


G-Friend are rising in popularity and it’s definitely well deserved! All six of them are so talented, especially at dancing – their choreographies are so amazing, their dance practice videos are definitely my favourite ones to watch of any group ever. They haven’t had a comeback yet that I disliked.

All the members are so sweet and talented and they’re just such an easy to stan group. They’re another group that I’d really love to see live if given the opportunity because they’re such amazing performers and I know they’d be brilliant. Here’s hoping they come to Europe one day!

Favourite song: Fingertip
Bias: Umji

1. 24K

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It’s no secret that I love 24K, okay? I have been trash ever since they come to London in January and ruined my life. But they are so talented and nice to their fans yet they keep getting slept on! They’re one of the few K-Pop groups who show Europe love regularly and I appreciate them so damn much for it.

I really can’t recommend 24K enough, watch literally any of their music videos because they deserve all the views they can get. You honestly won’t regret it, they’re so talented and I could go on about them all day but I won’t so just watch one of their music videos!

Favourite song: Hey You
Bias: Cory

This list was a mess and didn’t particularly make much sense but that applies to most of my posts, let’s be real.

24K in London Fan Meet Experience

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Okay so this post is going to be an absolute mess because I’m a mess so I’ll try and make sure everything makes sense but no promises! I added the screenshots ‘cos this was quite lengthy so I thought it’d break it up a bit.

So a while back 24K announced they were coming back to Europe but instead of doing concerts they were going to be doing fan meets. I was over the moon and then I found out that my two best friends who also like K-Pop would be in Berlin the week 24K came. So if I wanted to meet them I’d have to go by myself.

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Now I don’t particularly mind doing most things by myself but I was terrified at the thought of going to meet them by myself. I’d met them with Becca in Amsterdam and I’d lost my shit then.

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Me and Becca are the ones at the end on the left.

There were a few different types of tickets, you could get standard where you didn’t technically meet them (until they announced they’d be giving a hi-five to standard and early bird tickets like baes) or you could get like gold and silver which came with all sorts of stuff. I didn’t know what to go for but my friends convinced me to get a gold ticket which included a fan signing, hi-touch and a photo.

The day arrived and the anxiety was real. It didn’t help that I literally managed to fuck up so many things – I’d planned to wear this one specific t-shirt and I could not find it and I was stressed about that so I ended up having to pick a different one. Got to my hotel in London and I was rushing ‘cos the doors were opening at 3 and it was already past 2 so I was like “Right I’ll leave now” and realised that even though I’d be in the room for about five minutes I’d lost the key (it was under the bed somehow)? I found that and then nearly left without my ticket and I was honestly just generally a mess haha!

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I got to the queue and I got given number ‘93’ and joined the back of the Gold queue. I was in that queue for like an hour awkwardly on my phone ‘cos everyone was in their little groups and I’m too shy and awkward to even attempt to make conversation with anyone so I was just chilling by myself in the rain feeling a bit miserable but then the doors opened and we all went inside and the anxiety got even worse oh my god.

So we had to sit in order of your number so it was in rows of 10 and there were 100 gold tickets so I was in the back row which was fine by me, I hate going first. I need to see what everyone else is doing before I can do it myself – I don’t know why; I just need to know what’s happening. So 24K came out and we had the fan signing first and I was really nervous. My friend once posted a tweet about how different people feel anxiety in different places and how she feels hers in her wrists which I thought was strange ‘cos I normally feel it in my stomach but last night I 100% felt it in my legs like I was convinced I wouldn’t be able to stand up when it was my turn.

Eventually after what felt like a lifetime it was our rows turn so we got up and we each got given a poster to get signed and we had a sticky note with our names on. Got to the table and the first person there was Kisu. Now like I’m awkward at the best of times but I don’t know any Korean like at all and I didn’t know how good their English was (except for Cory obviously) so I was convinced I wouldn’t know what to say or do but it was absolutely fine.

I met Kisu and he was so sweet, he pronounced my name like ‘hoe-zie’ and he was like “Hi! I’m Kisu! Nice to meet you!” I’m pretty sure I do this weird thing where I like nod my head awkwardly so I start doing the weird nodding and I’m like “Yes, nice to meet you!” And he smiles and I smile and he pushes the poster onto the next member which was Jeunguk.

He was drinking water when I came over and he put his hand up but like he was holding a marker so I was confused about what he wanted me to do so I waved at him and he raised his eye-brows and I was like “ah I’m supposed to touch his hand” so I did and he laughed. He pronounced my name in the same way Kisu did. I’m pretty sure he talked to me more but like I was already a wreck at this point so I can’t remember so he moved the poster down to the next member which was Cory!

You’d think I’d kind of chill out ‘cos Cory’s fluent in English but he’s my bias so nope still awkward as ever. He was like “Hi! Hozzie! I think you definitely win having the most original name tonight!” so I was like “Ahaha thank you” and he grabbed my hands and was like “Thank you; have a really good time tonight!” So I start doing more awkward nodding and being like “Ah thank you, thank you.”

My interactions with Changsun and Hongseob were mostly the same, a lot of “nice to meet you”, hand holding and me just generally being awkward. Then I get to the end and it’s Jinhong and he went “Hi!” so I went “Hi!” And then… He didn’t say anything else. He signed my poster and then kind of looked at me and I didn’t know what to do so in the end I blurted “IT’S NICE TO MEET YOU” and I’m pretty sure he said something but I had no idea what he said and like every other fan has said, he has an intense stare man and I was folding under the pressure so I like took my poster and went “Thank you!” and walked away before I did something stupid.

Then we had the hi-touch which is a lot quicker than the fan sign so you just walk down and hold their hands for a second. Kisu was saying “I love you” to everyone and I could’ve said ‘I love you too’ like a normal person but I decided to go “Aha yes thank you”??? We had the photo taken and when me and Becca had ours taken in Amsterdam we literally plotted and schemed so that we could be in front of Cory and Kisu but I didn’t have her there to scheme with so I just went wherever I ended up. I don’t know where I ended up to be truthful. I wanted to do a heart with one of the members but I don’t have the confidence for that so I went for the peace signs, they’ve never let me down.

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UPDATE: So uh they posted it and I look awkward af but at least I’m in front of my bias?

So that finished and they went backstage and we all went to the barriers then they came back out so they could greet all the early bird and standard ticket holders. A few people had moaned that it was unfair that we had to pay extra to meet them which early bird and standard were essentially getting for free but it was a lot quicker than we’d had and personally I thought it was really sweet 24K had decided to do that. I could only afford a gold ticket because like I’m an adult and I have a job, there was once a time when I was a teenager and I had to go for standard tickets because my parents refused to buy more expensive tickets and I would’ve been over the moon if a group had done that.

After that the event started and I could talk about that but I know tons of people on Twitter have done threads about the Q&A and I remember it being really funny, like 24K are actually hilarious but my memory is absolutely awful so I’d have to refer to everyone’s threads and it would take all night and I’ve already rambled on so much so I’m going to jump straight into what was possibly the best thing that ever happened to me ever.

So they finish the Q&A and Cory and Kisu jump straight into the letter event which I’d heard about last month. Basically fans were asked to write a letter to 24K and at the show 24K would announce like their favourite one and whichever fan wrote it would go on stage with 24K. I’d seen the announcement and had taken a screenshot and sent it to my friends like ‘This sounds awesome but I don’t know if I should do it?’ To which they responded:

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The thought of meeting 24K was enough to make me feel terrified so I really didn’t know if I wanted to be on stage with them but I thought fuck it, I can write a letter right? They’ll never choose me but they’ll still get to read it and know what they mean to me. So I did, I spent like over an hour working on this letter and it was quite personal about something that had happened before I went to their show in Amsterdam and just general things about how amazing I thought they were and other stuff like that.

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To be honest I’d mostly forgotten about it until the show when we were doing the fan signing and they were all pronouncing my name and looking at it as if it was the first time they’d seen it so I assumed they hadn’t read the letter and like I was okay with that.

So Cory starts talking about how he wants to dedicate this song to all of us but also one specific fan so I’m like ‘ah cool the letter event’ and he was like “It’s for one girl, she wrote about how we inspire her” and I automatically thought ‘oh okay it’s not me then’. Because like I assumed he meant inspires them musically? To be musical? If that makes any sense at all? And then he said something along of the lines of “She really opened up to us and obviously I won’t go into the details because it was quite personal and can we all be nice about it please” and I was like well I did get personal in my letter but it won’t be me and then he’s like “Her name’s Hozzie.”

For a second I like blacked out like I’m pretty sure he carried on talking and I have like no recollection of what was said or what was happening. Now I’m a pretty quiet person unless I’m around people I’m comfortable with so like it’s pretty rare for me to think ‘ok I’ll be loud’ like I don’t even like yelling “I’ve finished all the notices” to my colleague who is one bank of desks away from me at work, I will email her ‘cos I don’t wanna be too loud. But my friends will vouch for me, when the panic sets in, I will become loud. About a month ago my friend won a game of Bingo but was too scared to call it and when I figured out she’d won I screamed “JESS!” at the top of my lungs across a silent bingo hall. I panic, I become loud.

So of course I was like ‘shit it’s me, it’s me’ so I legit yelled “THAT’S ME!” and threw both my hands in the air ‘cos like fuck being scared, I was not gonna miss this opportunity. I was losing my shit, everyone around me was losing their shit all cheering and Cory’s like “Oh cool, can you join us on stage?” and I had this like moment of ‘what the fuck is happening’ where I couldn’t figure out where to go or what to do but everyone pointed me in the right direction. I remember Cory being like “We didn’t even have to reveal your last name because your name’s so unusual”.

I got onto the stage and one of the members was there to walk with me to the centre but I’m like losing it at this point, I’m shaking so bad I don’t even know which member it was. And there was this chair facing away from the crowd so I sat down and Cory’s like “Is it okay facing this way or do you want it the other way?” I was so nervous already I knew looking at the crowd would be a bad idea so I was like “This ways fine” and they like all walked off and the lights went down and I’m just sat there like ‘well shit, things got very real very fast.’

The music for ‘Honestly?’ starts and I’m just sat there not knowing what to do ‘cos like what the hell do you do? And I just oh my god, here is what I do remember:

– I remember seeing Cory, Kisu and Jinhong a lot like way more than the other three members
– I had no idea where to look or what the hell to do, I’d be looking at the members then I couldn’t handle it and I’d have to look away haha!
– Cory had the cutest smile when he was singing to me I just I can’t
– They all held my hand at some point and I just what
– One member, I couldn’t even see which one put his arm around me and I was just sat there being an awkward bean
– Another member played with my hair for a second like yes boy
– One member was already holding my hand and Cory came up behind him and started holding it too and I just, Cory’s smile was so beautiful oh my god
– It got to like the middle eight of the song and Kisu gave me a flower and I just I don’t even know how I was still alive at this point
– Hongseob is so cute I just
– The song ended and they’re all in front of me doing these cute poses and I’m like oh my fucking god
– One of them hugged me, I was so like starstruck that I don’t know who it was but I was over the moon – UPDATE: According to a girl on Facebook it was Hongseob ^_^
– What the hell do you say to that? I was sat there and they like all looked at me and I was like “well thanks” like an awkward person
– The song ended and one of the members was like “cheer up” and I don’t know if that was in reference to my letter or the look I had on my face but I’ll get to that in a second
– They were like “Thank you!” And I was still sat there so Cory like held his arm up like ‘you need to leave’ so I was like ‘ah here’s my cue’ and I left
– One of the members walked with me off stage but I was too shy to make eye contact

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So basically what was happening with my face was a big concern because a couple of years ago I met Pierce The Veil and I went over and Vic Fuentes was like “Hi! What’s your name?” and I was like “It’s Hozzie!” and he was like “Hozzie? Well, we’ve been waiting for you Hozzie.” And I legit died on the spot so the guy with my phone took the picture and well…

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I WAS SO HAPPY IN THAT PHOTO. DO I LOOK IT? NO. I LOOK LIKE I WANNA BLOODY CRY. IT LOOKS LIKE THEY’RE HOLDING ME RANSOM OR SOMETHING? Clearly I develop sad face in situations like this so I cannot even begin to imagine my damn face when all this was going on ‘cos like it was intense, I’m just gonna put it out there. So rest assured that it was the best moment of my life and if I looked sad, it’s because my face is weird.

The rest of the fan meet happened but like I was a mess. I was thirsty before I went up but I came off and it was like I’d been in the Sahara desert for three weeks so I like walked over to the bar and asked for a tap water and the woman was like “Yeah, I bet you need one now” and I was like “aha yes”. I was just stood at the back messaging my friends because in that moment I just really needed some moral support from my main hoes.

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Also, I’m just gonna put this out there, 24K fans are so nice and chill. Like I went back over to the crowd at the end for ‘Bingo’ and ‘Superfly’ ‘cos I’d kind of calmed down by this point and I was stood by this group of girls and they started talking to me and they were all like “Oh how was it? I bet it was awesome.” So I was like “I’m dead inside now, I can’t believe it.” And this girl smiled and went “Aw, you really deserved it.” And like the way everyone around me lost their shit and cheered for me when they found out it was me even though none of them had spoken to me before that moment? Like they all had every right to be salty but they weren’t – I found one girls thread and she said her and her friends even started chanting my name and I just? 24K fans are honestly the best.

We weren’t supposed to take photos or videos but I hope someone sneakily did ‘cos like I went there by myself and I’m messaging everyone like ‘I WENT ON STAGE WITH 24K OMG’ and luckily my friends know that I wouldn’t bullshit about something like that but it would be nice to have some proof. If I find any I’ll update this post and add them.

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Also, I was nervous about meeting 24K because of like general anxiety but there was another thing. I’m so insecure about the way I look. And like I’ve seen the Korean beauty standards and I’m a size 20 and most days I think I’m ugly as fuck. I didn’t for one second think they’d say anything about it but I don’t know, it made me ten times more nervous but the fact that they were all so sweet has made me feel so much better.

I’ve been feeling so down this year, like you would not believe how much of a shit year I have had. But like I feel like I can put all that behind me after last night. I have to go back to work tomorrow and it’s gonna be such a downer because I had the best time ever and I will never get to relive that.

But yes if you ever get the chance to see 24K, 10/10 I do recommend! Apparently they’re preparing for their next comeback so let’s all emotionally prepare ourselves for that.

I’m just going to apologise for the sheer length of this post and how my basic grasp of English disappeared (fuck knows how many times I used the word ‘like’ in this post) but I just really needed to write it out. Since I was by myself last night there was no one I could fan girl with and I got maybe four hours sleep last night ‘cos I just couldn’t stop thinking about it. I’m shook like honestly.

Review: Flawed by Cecelia Ahern


I actually picked up the sequel to this book ‘Perfect ‘in ASDA because it caught my eye. The moment I realised it was a sequel I put it back down and found ‘Flawed’ on a different shelf. I read the blurb and it sounded fairly interesting. Read the first page and it didn’t put me off. So I bought it. It was top of my ‘to be read’ list and for some reason I was really reluctant to start reading it? I was really worried I wouldn’t like it and that it’d be dull even though the idea sounded really good.

The story is about Celestine North who lives a perfect life. She’s a model daughter, she’s well-liked by her friends and teachers, and she’s dating perfect Art Crevan – son of Judge Crevan. She stays out of trouble. Until an impulsive decision where she breaks a rule and now faces life-changing consequences. She could be imprisoned, she could be branded, she could be found flawed. Will Celestine back down or could she change everything?

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As I said, I was reluctant to start it… But once I started I really got into it! The book doesn’t waste any time and we’re pulled straight into the action and we quickly learn more about the world Celestine lives in, where you can’t do anything wrong in case you’re branded as ‘flawed’.  To be honest Celestine was a bit annoying to begin with but I grew to like her. I couldn’t stand her boyfriend Art though right from the beginning.

This paragraph contains slight spoilers so beware! One thing that slightly annoys me is that Celestine is so desperate not to be branded flawed yet she still did what she did? She was too afraid to talk to her friend because her Mother had been branded flawed yet ten minutes later she’s doing something that gets her branded flawed herself? And her sister didn’t say anything because she was too afraid yet she’d been dead cheeky to Judge Crevan just the night before? I understand it had to happen to get the story moving but it just seemed really out of character?

Other than that though, I really did enjoy it. It was so much better than I expected it to be and I got sucked into Celestine’s world. In fact I enjoyed it so much that I wasn’t even sad to find out there was a sequel. In my previous review of ‘Songs about a Girl’ I criticised it for setting up a sequel instead of being a standalone book. Now I’m a bit of a hypocrite because ‘Flawed’ did the exact same thing except I didn’t mind at all.

Overall, I really do recommend this book because I thought it was brilliant. Go and give it a read!

Review: Songs About a Girl by Chris Russell

Songs About A Girl by Chris Russell

I found out about this book through a Booktuber I’ve been watching for a while. She praised the book highly and it sounded interesting so I bought myself a cheap copy from Amazon.

The story is about Charlie Bloom who’s an ordinary girl who never wanted to be ‘with the band’. She’s happiest out of sight, unnoticed. But then she’s asked to take backstage photographs for popular band ‘Fire & Lights’ and she can’t pass up the chance. Soon Charlie finds herself caught up in drama between the group’s front man Gabriel West and his band mate Olly Samson. And soon Charlie discovers a hidden meaning behind their lyrics that could change her life…

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It starts off well. Charlie’s an okay character to read about and the story’s relatively interesting. I’ll admit it had me hooked. Slight spoiler alert but Charlie discovers that the lyrics in their songs are lyrics her Mother wrote down in a notebook years ago and she tries to find out how this can be when everyone knows that Gabriel writes his own songs. I wanted to find out too and it was enough to keep me hooked throughout the book.

Although it didn’t annoy me too much while I was reading it, upon reflection the love triangle was really annoying. Olly went to Charlie’s school so he knew her and invited her to take photos because he knew how good of a photographer she was. Upon meeting the band Gabriel decides he has a crush on her and so does Olly, and so the love triangle begins.

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As I said, I wasn’t particularly annoyed whilst reading it but upon reflection it’s just a bit stupid. Gabriel had known the girl for all of five minutes before having a crush on her. And it seems stupid that Olly waited until after school when he was in a famous band to go back and decide he had a crush on a random girl from the year below him who he’d only spoken to once. He might’ve liked her photographs but that’s not enough of a reason to have a crush on someone. Tim Burton makes some good films but I don’t have a crush on him. Also I understand there was some unresolved beef between Gabriel and Olly before Charlie showed up but really? They had to argue and fight every twenty seconds over some girl neither of them barely knew?

I’m just about learning to tolerate romance in books but the one thing I can’t stand is a stupid, pointless love triangle.

To be honest, I still think I really could’ve enjoyed this if it had been a standalone novel; I was a bit annoyed to get to the end and find it had been deliberately left unresolved to set up a sequel. We find out the truth about the song’s lyrics, the only reason we need a sequel is to keep reading about some stupid love triangle which was not what I had signed up for. Sure it was interesting but I don’t want to read a whole other book about Olly and Gabriel’s tantrums. No thank you.

Overall I don’t know what to think about this book, I enjoyed it while I was reading it but it’s not a book I’m likely to return to or recommend to a friend. And I won’t be buying the sequel.

Review: Not That Kind of Girl by Siobhan Vivian

Not That Kind of Girl

So I kind of fell in love with Siobhan Vivian’s books when I finished reading ‘The List’ and decided to buy more of her work. I asked for ‘Not That Kind of Girl’ for Christmas but for some reason when my Mom went to buy it they told her it wasn’t available until May for some reason? So she didn’t get it so I went to Waterstones myself to buy it.

‘Not That Kind of Girl’ is about Natalie Stirling who prides herself on always making the right choices. She avoids the jock types, always top honour roll and plans to become the first female student council president in years. If only the other girls could be like her. But being strong isn’t easy. Not when Natalie nearly gets expelled anyway, when her advice hurts more than it helps, not when she can’t stop thinking about a boy she knows she should ignore… What will Natalie do?

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I don’t really know what to think of this book. It’s not that I didn’t enjoy it because I definitely did but I wasn’t over the moon about it or anything. Like I said in my review of ‘The Last Boy and Girl in the World’ I think I would’ve enjoyed it more if I hadn’t read ‘The List’ first. I feel like that set my expectations really high and this book was a bit of a letdown. It was good; don’t get me wrong, but not as great as I hoped.

Natalie was okay but I didn’t really grow too attached to her or anything. However, I really loved Spencer who was a girl that Natalie had previously babysat for when she was younger but had just started at High School. I loved how honest and open she was. Sure, she made some questionable decisions but she’s confident and a lot wiser than I was at her age. Mike, however, can literally suck a cock.

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I thought Natalie’s relationship with Connor was a bit cringe, not gonna lie. The chapters of Natalie sneaking out in the middle of the night to meet up with him were really boring and I just couldn’t get into it. I was glad when they eventually got together but the build up to it really made me cringe and I’m not sure why. I know I’m not a fan of romance but this was something else.

Overall, I did enjoy the book. I wouldn’t go out of my way to recommend it to my friends but if they asked if they should read it I’d say yes. If you’re a fan of Siobhan Vivian’s other books then I’d definitely recommend getting a copy.